Such a feelin's comin' over me
Not a cloud in the sky
Got the sun in my eyes
And I won't be surprised if it's a dream
Everything I want the world to be
Is now coming true especially for me
And the reason is clear
It's because you are here
You're the nearest thing to heaven that I've seen
I'm on the top of the world lookin' down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world
- The Carpenters
even though i may say that its has come to a time that it doesnt matter anymore, somewhere deep down, hidden in a corner, it actually matter. i know friends can disappoint you, i have been there before. but i always deluded myself that she will never. i guess sometimes i have disappointed her before. how nice if we all can say what we always wanted to say, out to each other and clear the air. sometimes, tension builds up, i believe she feels it too. looks like i can now only rest in the finished work of my Abba Father and let Him decide for me :D depending on myself will most probably make things worse. that's the last thing on my mind right now. truthfully, i don't wanna to lose this friend. she's a really great friend. but sometimes, i think it is that we are so use to each other and so lost in our own world, we take each other for granted. it takes two hands to clap, so i admit its partly my fault. but does she even know? that, i have no idea.
let your heart out.